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a human heart demands to be admired.. [31 Oct 2005|06:43pm]
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I want to save you from the lost and damned... [31 Oct 2005|11:28am]
[ mood | okay ]

Well my grandma has an annoyrism, thats what my Mom had which was the cause of her death.
She doesn't want the operation, this is just well.. wonderful. (sarcasm)
She needs this operation, she still has another 20 years she could live.
This operation could save her life, yet she refuses to have it.
I don't want her to die.
Anyway, moving on.
So my birthday was two days ago.
I'm getting HIM concert tickets on Tuesday for my birthday.
And my dad's letting me order a Nightwish shirt.
My uncle got me an Edward Scissorhands poster.
And Matt got me a Carol Robinson poster =)
It's so amazing.. this is the poster he got me..

Mm i'm in love with it.
So I'm supposed to be going to the mall with Mara today.
But I gotta get ready first, which I don't feel like doing due to lazyness.
I said I was going to take my shower after I read three chapters of my book but I ended up going on to reading ten chapters.
So I'm just going to finish this up and then take my shower.
And since I can't think of anything else to type in here, I'm going to take the shower now.

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fill this out in an annoymous comment.. [28 Oct 2005|04:21pm]
[ mood | good ]

Give me a clue to who you are:

AM I...
1. Quiet or Loud?:
2. Short or Tall?:
3. Weird or Original?:
4. Nice or Mean?:
5. Friendly or Selfish?:
6. Normal or "Special"?:
7. Smart or Stupid?:
8. Boring or Fun?:
9. Attractive or Unattractive?

1. A psycho?:
2. Athletic?:
3. A nerd?:
4. A ?:
5. Ghetto?:
6. A bitch?:
7. Two-faced?:
8. Obnoxious?:
9. Immature?:
10. Mature?
11.pretty? :

1. What do you think I'll be when I grow up?:
2. (a) Do you think I'll get married?:
(b) If you do... who do you think I'll marry?:
3. When is my birthday?:
4. Who is my best friend?:
5. What song (if any) reminds you of me?:
6. Do I remind you of any characters on TV?:
7. If you could rename me...what would my name be?:
8. Have you ever had a dream about me?:
9. Do you think I'm a virgin?:
10. If you could give me anything...what would it be?:
11. If you could promise me anything... what would it be?:

1. do you love me?:
2. Would you ever kiss me?:
3. Would you ever consider being my boy/girl friend?:
4. Do you ever think about me off-line?:
5. If you could describe me in one word wat would it be:
6. Do you or have you ever had a crush on me?:
7. Do you want me?:
8. Do you wish we were closer?:
9. State here your completely honest opinion about me

Tell the total and complete truth!

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idk stole this from hoffmann, i'm bored. [28 Oct 2005|02:08pm]
[ mood | happy ]


50 Stereotypes about girls....
x the ones that apply to you.

[ ] 1. we dig axe
[ ] 2. we're as afraid of you as you are of us
[ ] 3. we try to impress you most of the time
[x] 4. we flirt alot if we like you
[x] 5. we flirt alot. period.
[ ] 6. the one thing we like more than you, are shoes
[ ] 7. we dont understand "guy talk"
[x] 8. we LOVE hugs
[x] 9. we hate it when youre ignorant
[x] 10. were not that girly, at all
[x] 11. we hate hardcore action movies
[ ] 12. we giggle 24/7
[x] 13. we are scared of almost anything
[x] 14. we dont always like the "tall dark and handsome" guy
[x] 15. AIM is our life
[x] 16. you see our myspace layout? its our 865412875th one
[x] 17. we ALWAYS think were fat, ALWAYS
[x] 18. our personalities change in highschool
[ ] 19. we have celebrity "boyfriends"
[ ] 20. were scared of clowns
[x] 21. and were scared of the dark
[x] 22. and were scared of spiders
[ ] 23. we HATE horror movies
[x] 24. we 're not sluts
[x] 25. we take things alot more serious then it seems
[x] 26. we run around our house in baggy shirts and our underwear
[ ] 27. during sleep overs, we talk about the guys we'd go all the way with
[ ] 28. we arent athletic
[x] 29. we trust you more than our girl friends
[/] 30. we are conceited, we just dont like to admit it
[ ] 31. we cover ourselves in foundation
[x] 32. no matter how nice we are, we CAN be bitches
[ ] 33. we love being scared
[x] 34. cuddling is our specialty
[ ] 35. we LOVE cars
[x] 36. we hate alot of people
[ ] 37. we cat fight
[x] 38. we scream when were mad
[x] 39. we DONT squeal when we break a nail
[x] 40. we BREAK things down when were mad
[ ] 41. we love to talk about our boobs
[ ] 42. the food in expensive resturaunts always taste better
[ ] 43. bubble baths sooth us
[ ] 44. when we dont know what to say on the phone, we sigh
[x] 45. we are serious people...most of the time
[ ] 46. our hair is part of who we are
[ ] 47. we can eat a lot
[x] 48. we hate cartoons
[ ] 49. our cell phones are our best friend
[ ] 50. we love the color pink

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save my life, i'm going down for the last time.. [20 Oct 2005|03:59pm]
[ mood | good ]

Things have been ok lately I guess
Don't really want to talk about how I'm feeling right now though.
Kristie broke up with Karen today, I feel so bad, Karen really liked Kristie
They were going out for a year and four months. =(
Um a lot of break up's today actually.
Melissa's girlfriend broke up with her
Mike's girlfriend broke up with him also.
Hm, Jamie's sick, I hope she's okay.
She can't eat and she's having a hard time breathing.
She's going to the doctor's tomorrow.
There's another hurricane coming, it's a categlory four now but it might go back to being a categlory five.
The Oktoberfest Picnic is being reschedualed, I don't know when it's going to be now though.
I ran so much yesterday, I feel like my legs are going to fall off.
I'm going running again later also.
15 miles yesterday, hopefully I can get to 20 miles today.
Hopefully this will get me ready for track and help me lose weight.
Two months until Lauren gets here!!<3333
Brittany's coming also and Rebecca might be.
If Rebecca come's we're gonna chill with Mike and watch him skateboard and he's gonna teach us.
I'm going to get the HIM concert tickets soon hopefully.
Well I can't think of anything else to write so later days.
A bullet from the back of a bush
Took Medgar Evers' blood
A finger fired the trigger to his name
A handle hid out in the dark
A hand set the spark
Two eyes took the aim
Behind a man's brain
But he can't be blamed
He's only a pawn in their game. -- Bob Dylan

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[14 Oct 2005|11:09pm]
autumn leaves, dying leaves
season of death
when winds blow cold
thoughts of death creep in as i sleep
i dream i'm in a coffin
safe from the life i don't want to lead
i'm not afraid
soothing, black and warm
soothing, black and warm
safe from the pain
and safe from the fools
safe, soothing, black.
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[13 Oct 2005|12:02pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

So last night I got accused of being anorexic by my best friend. I sware I'm going to scream the next time someone thinks I am. I just don't eat breakfast or lunch, plain and simple, and since no one except my family see's me eat dinner they think I'm anorexic. I don't even look it so I don't get why no one belives me. Yeah, I don't always eat dinner but I'm not always hungry, you eat when you're hungry not when the clock says it's time to. I got a phone call from Mrs. Dressler about two weeks ago(she was my teacher from 7th & 8th grade) and she asked me if I was still bulimic. I can't believe she had the nerve to ask me that considering I was never diagnoised bulimic. Just because I threw up on a fucking cruise after eating a biscut because I get motion sickness "I'm bulimic". Whatever, fuck all of you who think I have an eating disorder, because want to know the truth, I DON'T! I just don't eat much, yeah I think I'm fat, but honestly, EVERYONE has some point in their life when they think they are fat, so you can think I have an eating disorder, but don't fucking come to me yelling at me because of it because I DON'T HAVE ONE!

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[12 Oct 2005|07:43pm]
[ mood | good ]

I haven't really updated in a while.
Haven't really felt like writting in here or talking to many people eaither.
I'm in a really good mood right now though so that's good.
I have to sell fourty chocolate bars by next Thursday for Drama Club.
If I don't sell them all I have to buy the extra's.. that's bullshit, I hate chocolate.
I have German and Drama club pictures being taken this Friday.. great.
Hm I don't really know what to say.
Jackie got out of South Oaks and she says she's getting better but I still worry about her.
I'm also really worried about Lisa she's not really eating and she seems so depressed lately.
And now Lauren's all blahh and I don't know I'd think she'd be happy because today's her three month with her gf.
I think Megan's joining track with me next month I'm not sure, I hope she does or I'll die during track.
Mara's going to go shopping with me for a dress for this stupid ball thing for modeling that I have to go to.
I hate modeling.. it's bullcrap.
But on the plus side I do make money which I really need right now.
I'm getting this Nightwish ring for my birthday.. I'm really happy about that.
I think I'm going to one of their concerts for like graduation or something but who know's that's a little more than two years away.
I think I'm in a fight with Rebecca which is kind of strange, we never fight.
I'm a little mad at her though, she's turning into a total slut.
I got a C on my World History test yesterday, I know I could have gotten an A or at least a B, I always do good in World History.
I got my school pictures back today, they're ok I guess.
Well I can't really think of anything else so I guess that's it.

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blehhh comment [28 Sep 2005|07:35pm]
[ mood | tired ]

(× • B A S I C S • × •

Name: Lisa
Single or Taken: Single
Gender: Girl
Birthday: October 29th, 1990
Sign: Scorpio
Siblings: older brother
Hair color: black
Eye color: brown
Height: 5'1

• × • R E L A T I O N S H I P S • × •

You have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no
How many exes do you have?: idk
What is your longest relationship?: surprisingly two years on and off
What was your shortest relationship? a day hahah

• × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × •

Where is your favorite place to shop for clothes: idc
Any tattoos or piercings: ears
What do u wear most the time?: jeans/sweatpants and a t-shirt and jacket

• × • S P E C I F I C S • × •

Do you do drugs?: no
What kind of shampoo do you use?: panteen pro-v
What are you most scared of? rejection and losing people
Who is the last person that called you?: traci
Where do you want to get married?: idc

× • F A V O R I T E S • × •

Colors: black and red
Foods: idk
Subjects in school: english
Animals: dogs

• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •

Given anyone a bath?: yeah
Smoked?: yeah
Made yourself throw up?: yeah =/
Skinny dipped?: yeah
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: yeah when i was like four
Cried when someone died?: yeah
Lied: yeah
Fallen for your best friend?: yeah
Been rejected?: yeah
Rejected someone?: yeah
Used someone?: yeah jillian horowitz.. idk why though
Done something you regret?: yeah a lot

• × • C U R R E N T • × •

Clothes: sweatpants and a sweatshirt
Smell: my dads pasta sauce
DVD in player: The Ring 2

• × • L A S T P E R S O N • × •

You touched: um i think jamie
You IMed: hoffmann
You yelled at: will =)

• × • A R E Y O U • × •

Understanding: yeah pretty much
Open minded: yeah
Arrogant: sometimes
Insecure: yeah
Random: sometimes
Hungry: nope
Smart: when i try
Moody: sometimes
Hard working: when i wanna be
Organized: at home yeah and in school not really
Healthy: i guess
Shy: when i first start talking to someone
Attractive: um that's up to you not me
Obsessed: no
Angry: yeah but i always am
Sad: eh not really
Happy: yeah
Hyper: not right now

• × • W H O D O Y O U W A N N A • × •

Kill?: jillian horowitz =)
Slap?: no one
Have sex with?: ;) hehe

• × • F I N I S H T H E S E N T E N C E • × •

All I need is: love
Love is: a bitch
I dream about: my mom

• × • W H O • × •

Makes you smile: mara because she's oh so funny and positive
Gives you a funny feeling when you see him or her?: wilfred

• × • D O Y O U E V E R • × •

Sit on the internet all night waiting for that special someone to get on?: no
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: no
Wish you were younger: no

• × • N U M B E R • × •

-Of scars on my body: idk
-Of kisses: idk

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[28 Sep 2005|06:51pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]


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[24 Sep 2005|11:22pm]
[ mood | creative ]

omg how amazing does Tarja look in this picture?
I love it so much.

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PICTURES [23 Sep 2005|08:34pm]
[ mood | creative ]

pictures under the cutCollapse )

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friends only.. comment to be added [19 Sep 2005|08:25pm]
[ mood | good ]

What just happened?
Did you kiss me?
Cause that's a place we've never been until now
And I don't know how it's gonna be after this
Do we pretend these feelings don't exist at all
Or do we fall?
My confusion shows whenever you get so close
I stumble, I stutter, forget what to say
I'm nervous, I wonder why I'm acting this way
It's temporary insanity
What's going on with you and me?
Is it real or is it fantasy?
Forever or just temporary?
Woah, oh, oh (insanity)
Woah, oh, oh
You made a moved and changed your mind
Too much to lose, you've crossed the line between friends
And something more
Was it all a big mistake?
And if it was, it's much too late to undo
And I don't really want to
Let you go but I still don't know
How I feel about you
What this really means
It's crazy to want you
Is it meant to be?
It's temporary insanity
What's going on with you and me?
Is it real or is it fantasy?
Forever or just temporary?
It's temporary insanity
What's going on with you and me?
Is it real or is it fantasy?
Forever or just temporary?
Woah, oh, oh (insanity)
Woah, oh, oh
Oh, what you do to me?
What comes over me, oh?
If this is crazy there's nothing I'd rather be

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